Killion Photography

Hello! Welcome to my blog! I’m not really sure about all this blog stuff but I’m gonna give it a try. I thought it would be fitting to let my first post be from my son (Holden’s) 1st birthday party. I can’t beleive he’s already 1!

People always tell me to enjoy it ‘cuz it goes by so fast and I just smile and nod but now I realize that it really does! And can I tell you how in love with him I am?!?! Well, I’m going to anyways. When I first found out I was pregnant, I cried. Not tears of joy but real “Holy crap, how did this happen” kinda tears. I made several trips to the drug store and bought every different brand of pregnancy test they make. I kept thinking it was a mistake. But it wasn’t. And being preggo…not my thing. You get fat, you’re tired all the time, you can’t sleep on your stomach, and you spend at least 25% of your day in the bathroom. How do women see the beauty in this?!?! The only thing getting me through was the thought of the beautiful little girl that I was gonna get to dress-up everyday. I even bought girl bedding before I found out the sex because I was just sure God wouldn’t make me be pregnant AND make me have a boy! So you can imagine my surprise when the sonogram tech said “it’s a boy”! Yes, again there were tears (not of joy). I think I asked her to check it again at least 5 times. Surely it was a mistake! I literally cried all the way home from the doctor and had random episodes the entire next week! What in the hec am I going to do with a boy, I thought! I do have to admit that I entertained the thought of going ahead and buying pink. I mean, come on all babies really do look the same the first year of life, don’t they?

Anyways, when he arrived a month early (which is a whole other story), I was caught completely off guard. He was so little and we had to get preemie clothes. But I did fall in love with him (or so I thought). I had a hard time adjusting to motherhood (big surprise). This little thing that has to eat every 2 hours, poops and pees all over the place, and is SO demanding. I didn’t know if was gonna make it the first few months. But somewhere along the way, that little bit of love I felt started to grow. And without my knowledge, at some point, it exploded. And I have honestly just realized lately that I don’t just love this little dude, but that I am madly in love with him. It took me almost 2 years from the time I found out I was pregnant but seriously, I don’t think anyone on earth loves their baby boy like I do. ;) He is the most amazing little person and I LOVE being his mommy. On Holden’s 1st birthday (May 2nd), I was praying for him and I asked God to give me a verse that I could tell Holden was just for him. I opened up my bible and here’s what I saw:

“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born, I set you apart and appointed you as my spokesman to the world.” Jeremiah 1:5

Tell me that’s not AMAZING! God must have big plans for this little guy. And I get to be his mom! Kinda scary sometimes. I hope I get it right! Okay, enough rambling for now….here’s a few pics from his b-day!

Needless to say, Holden LOVED his first taste of b-day cake. I seriously think he ate the whole darn thing! We all had the most fun at his party. It will definitely be a day we remember forever!

After demolishing his smash cake, he stuck his hand into the big cake when no one was looking!

He got so many presents! I think he might have had more fun climbing all over the boxes!